Last night Joseph’s grandmother, Marie, came in to care for him while I went home to sleep. He was resting but not as well as the past few nights. He is having tummy cramps and is starting to get insatiable hunger, which is a side effect of the steroids in his treatment. When I arrived Joseph was awake and unsettled as his grandmother was soothing him and gently rubbing his tummy. I started to sing “just as I am” and he closed his eyes and began to relax. Soon he was asleep and Marie could go home to rest.
However a few minutes later he awoke again and looked at me. I waited to see if he would close his eyes again. Then asked ” would you like me to sing again” this got a nod – yes. So I picked up my hymnbook and flipped through till I saw a song I knew the tune to and started to sing it to him. As Joseph started to breath deeply again and slip off to sleep I was singing these words.
Every joy or trial falleth from above, traced upon our dial by the sun of love, we may trust Him fully, all for us to do, They who trust Him wholly, find Him wholly true, Stayed upon Jehovah , hearts are fully blessed, finding as He promised perfect peace and rest.
Here was my little boy so sick and in such a strange and frightening place able to rest because his daddy was next to him. Here I was with my life turned upside down and praying for my son to live and wondering what will come next. And my Father in heaven inviting me into rest, To trust him wholly and find Him wholly true.